The day of departure is always fraught with tension and anxiety. I should remember this when planning, but I always seem to forget. I should plan these days so that I leave in the morning and just head on to the next leg of my journey, but instead I try to milk every last second out of every trip, thus ending up in the same situation every single time. I planned it so that we would have until early afternoon in Cinque Terre before moving on to Pordenone. We didn’t want to walk too far, in case we were too late coming back. We didn’t want to go to another town, in case we lost track of time and didn’t get back in time for our trains. There was all this worry because we had many legs of a train journey to reach our destinations, or at least I did. So, we dawdled around Vernazza all morning and waited…
The shops were open, the town was bustling and the “business centre” was hopping. We went back to our favourite shop, Katrina’s, and we tried on a variety of clothes. Nina had already bought a handbag there about 10 minutes after we arrived in the town on our first day. I had seen a dress (or 3) that I loved and had decided I would go back and try them on even though I swore I wouldn’t buy any clothes while on holiday. (Bringing only a carry-on is the best budget-minder). Katrina’s is owned by Katrina, an American who came to Italy, fell in love with the place and a man (though not necessarily in that order), and hasn’t looked back since. That was almost 6 years ago. She still talks about the states but seems to have settled in nicely to life over here. Though her shop is tiny, there is tons to see and she always has time for a chat. We visited with her a few times while in Vernazza. In the end, Nina bought a jacket and I did buy a dress. She gave us stories and we were happy to give her our business.
I bought a tile from an Irishman who had prime retail space right at the harbor. His wife had owned the shop for 20 years but the town had told them they had to move out. Another foreigner that came to the Cinque Terre, fell in love and never left. No one expects it to happen, or plans for it, but years pass and before you know it they are looking back and marveling at it all.
We spent some time in the church. It is cold and dark but such a fantastic space- today it was the perfect place to sit, to think, to listen to my own thoughts and to dream. If you sit quietly you can hear the waves crashing against the shore. If you look towards the windows you can see the sea. It is in just the right spot to sit and appreciate all that is around you.
We wandered up the path that led to Monterosso, knowing we weren’t going to do the walk but wanting just one last picture of Vernazza from up the hill. The path took us through the back alleyways, climbing stairs and passing by beautiful doors that led to mysterious spaces. As we walked past, seeing names on doors or things people had hung out to decorate their space, I wondered who lived there, and what they did. The locals always fascinate me. I love wandering in and out of the shops, asking questions and learning everyone’s story. This is one thing I love most about travelling. It’s the places and the sights that I love to photograph but it’s the stories and my time with people all around the world that claim a small piece of my heart which I leave all around the world. I love talking with them and getting a feel for life in the town. And I love imagining what life would be like if I were just to stay.
But this time I didn’t. Shopping, lunch and then it was time to say goodbye. It was good to hang out with Nina and though a short visit, we had an awesome time and I did all that I hoped to do and saw all that I had hoped to see in the Cinque Terre. The rest of my day was pretty uneventful. I did feel that I needed to redeem myself after almost getting on the wrong train the other day, so I went and asked about catching an earlier train and ended up hopping from train to train and rushing around a few stations. I went from Vernazza to La Spezia to Pisa to Firenze to Pordenone, changing trains in between. A lot of trains, (perhaps too many), but I made it and made all my connections without any problem!
By the time I arrived in Pordenone, it was 9:30. I was tired but my uncle and cousins had waited for me for dinner so after stopping at another cousin’s house to say hello, we headed to my other cousin’s pizzeria. How wonderful it is to be surrounded by family. I love that as soon as I stepped off the train I saw my relatives waiting, and went up with a hug and a kiss as if 5 years hadn’t passed since the last time I saw them.
Some yummy food, good chats and a nice drink to end the night and it was time to head home. While it may not be my real home, it truly does feel like I am coming home when I am here. When I visit, my uncle always goes to such trouble to make sure that things are just right for me. It’s so sweet and I really do appreciate it. I know he’s a dedicated bachelor and so it’s not really his style to have someone else in his space. But tonight I came home to a lovely new duvet on the bed, some chocolates and water on the dresser and extra blankets in case I got cold.
I went upstairs and headed to my bedroom. I was expecting to be in “my” room, the room in which I spent my 21st year and all my other visits since, but instead my uncle followed behind me and told me I would be staying in the front room. My Nonna’s room. This was her space. Until Dad and I moved her down to the front room a couple years before she passed away, this was where she always slept. This was where I could hear her snoring and this is where I crept past quietly when I came in late and this is where she would call out to me to say good night.
By the time we came home from dinner it was almost midnight. I was tired. I really just wanted to throw my head down on the pillow and crash. But instead I unpacked. I hung up all my clothes and emptied my bag. I arranged all my stuff and then went and got ready for bed. And then I started typing.
I didn’t want to go to bed and not record how I was feeling. I wanted to make note of how it felt to pull up to the house. I wanted to note how I broke out into a big smile when I saw the gate open and the building where the rabbits and chickens used to be. I wanted to write about how when the key turned in the door to come inside my shoulders relaxed and I exhaled. I still call this Nonna’s house even though she’s been gone a few years now. Even though she’s no longer here, I feel her everywhere with me when I am here, especially in her room. The year I spent here with her left such an impression on me. I love Italy, I love everything Italian and she is a part of all of that. So even though I was tired, I spent the last hour thinking about her, crying because I won’t see her again and I miss her, especially when I am here. We had so many good talks- I never knew if she really understood what I was saying, but she was a wonderful listener. I will spend the next few days talking to her. I feel close to her. As always, I feel blessed. Every night we exchanged a “buon riposo” and a kiss and hug. Buon Riposo, Nonna. xo